redha

walau bagaimanapun, hidup mesti diteruskan..

markah test antenna

aku ingat aku dapat teruk yg teramat sangt gila dah,yela aku memg xstudy betul2 kot, anyway bukan nak berlagak aku dpt tinggi aku ckp macm ni,xtinggi pun, tapi nasib baik lebih sikit daripada setengah,kuikuikui..target aku selalunya dalam subjek2 yang aku agak2 xleh gi ni selalu nya aku berharap2 lebih dr setengah je dari total mark tu, haha..aku memang xleh gi la study dekat tempat public,itu pengajaran aku dr markah test ni..aku cuak gila kot nak tengok markah tu, sebb lepas buat test tu,aku kira2 xsemua nya aku jawab, apa apa pun alhamdulillah.. insyaAllah aku buat lagi baik lepas ni,huhuhuu..

sila insaf ye makcik..

scrolled timeline

assalammualaikum,

today, i scrolled back all my status in my facebook, how happy i was back then.. how positive i am, heh.. but now, i don't feel the same anymore, i wonder why.. i guess to many negative thought in my mind and led me become negatieve too.. oohh, how i miss the old me, i guess people change right? i still can't see the bright way of this changes, soon.. maybe... i miss my diploma life..ignoring what people think is my best when in diploma,but now, it's not the same like diploma.. homesick maybe? to far from home? maybe ishould recite Quran more, muhasabah myself..

seminar FYP 1 is around the corner, i am so nervous, i can't wait to finished, but some how i feel i do not know anything about my project.. i think this is maybe the sympthom avery final year student would feel :)

and guess what, this sem would be the longest time (almost 2 moths in a row) i haven't go back to my hometown compared to previous sem. i miss home, but.. i cannot go home..

one more thing, i guess i like to write again in the blog, as not many people do blog nowadays. and i am free to write whats inside my mind. i felt so insecure to post anything in my social networks page, such as facebook,twitter. i wish to have a new social network. where no one judging you.

kahwin

so today i read one of his sister status.
it is so deep..


am i ready to take care of two mothers? obey to my future husband?

only Allah knows..

FIRST IMPRESSION

Assalammualaikum,

first impression atau pandangan pertama bila kita jumpa sesesorang untuk pertama kali.

Dalam group laboratory aku ada 4 org termasuk aku, 2 perempuan and 2 lelaki, 3 org dari diploma dulu and sorang lagi budak matrik,budak matrik ni lelaki,nama dia sabri. so, kkitorang da bekerjasama almost 3 months and dalam 3 bulan ni, aku rasa aku banyak berborak and ketawa je dengan diorang. last two week, aku borak borak dengan groupmate lab aku, entah apa apa topik kadang2 kitorang borak kan,ada je ketawa, and suddenly terkeluar topik first impression antara budak matrik ni dengn kitorang yg budak diploma ni. At first, sabri refuse nak ckp.

SABRI: aku tak nak cakap la,nanti kau kecik hati..
AKU: xpe sabri,aku da bersedia mental dan fizikal ni,kau bagitahu je,aku terima.
SABRI: ok la, mula mula,aku tengok kau ni macam mak orang . . . .
AKU: apa?? aku dah agak da,mesti sebab aku selekah kan,pakaian aku eh? (dalam hati kecewa habis ni)
SABRI:haha, aku dah agak dah, aku bukan nak tekan kan yang pasal macam mak orang tu,pasal mak orang tu kecik je,aku nak cakap,lepas kenal,kau ni macam budak budak,hehehe.
AKU:  iye lah (sambil tersenyum tawar)

so,aku balik dari lab tu asyik duk fikir sambil bermonolog,aku ni dressup macam mak orang kot, yela, semenjak aku masuk degree ni,keselekehan aku makin terserlah, yekot....

balik tu, aku terus wassap En Shahrul, mengadu la kat dia cakap ada budak kelas saya cakap first impression dia dekat, adalah mcam mak orang,huhuhu..

nak tau dia reply apa.

"hihihih, betul la tu dia cakap,jujur"

daang!! pakwe aku pun setuju, ini tak boleh terima!

dan, minggu seterusnya, aku jumpa lagi group aku, pastu aku cakap la,"weh sabri, aku cerita kat pakwe aku, kau kata aku macam mak orang,  dia setuju kau tahu!!"

semua ahli group aku yg dengar semua gelak kan aku, huhhh...

and sabri pun reply, "maksud aku macam mak orang tu bukan gaya lah, mak orang tu maksud nya kau ni ada sifat motherly"

hahahah,OOooo.. motherly punya sifat..


dan sekarang,baru aku faham maksud sabri tu :)

pandangan

pandangan, atau opinion, ye, semua orang ada opinion sendiri,
bagi aku, aku suka dengar apa pandangan orang,sebab dari situ, aku dapat belajar, tak semestinya pandangan orang sama dengan kita. dan dari situ, kita belajar mana yang betul mana yang salah. sebab kadang-kadang tak semestinya kita betul.
dari situ jugak aku belajar supaya kita kena give and take dalam mendengar pandangan orang.
tapi bila deal dengan orang yang gaya nya.. tak boleh terima pandangan orang, nak dengar pandangan dia je yang betul,tu yang susah..
dan,aku dengan automatiknya hati membengkak sebab aku tak dapat luahkan pandangan aku.
sebab aku tak suka nak bertekak dengan orang yang rasa diri dia bagus..jadi, apa yang mampu aku buat DIAM, SENYUM,SABAR, TUNGGU DAN LIHAT.
my dear friends, jangan pertikai kan apa orang tu buat dalam kerja selagi ianya tidak salah, kita sokong je ok... dan bagi orang yang terasa dengan orang yang suka cakap macam ni seperti aku yang makan dalam je sekarang ni,kita fokus je lah apa yang  kita harus buat, kuat kan hati.. mulut orang memang la kita tak boleh nak tutup,apatah lagi nak lawan..

kadang-kadang, kita bercerita tanpa kita sedari, mengguris hati orang lain, mungkin aku juga ada mengguris hati orang lain bila bercerita,siapa tahu kan?

hello world

am i ready to face the cruel world?

ke-4 lupa!!

Guess what?i'm screewedd!!i totally forgot something important..when i go through my blog today after many month i abandoned this blog,then i realized...

Me n him 4 years already!!Seriusly i didn't remembrd it at all. I do remember the date last two month.. But when the time come,i totally forgot.and i think en shahrul also don't remember it because he didn't wish me too :( we are too busy now..no..no..no..i'm the one who is too busy..

Happy 4th anniversarry syg :) lets treasure this life together no matter how hard and easy the road..insyaallah... I love you :)

thought

We always said, it's hard to satisfied other person and keep hurting our self to satisfied other people.

But. . .

Have you ever wonder..people also trying so hard to satisfied yourself.

In my life journey,i have met so many great awesome people. I am proud to be around them.

But. . .

What i have done to be the awesome and great person. Being with them is not enough. I should be one of them.

cerita dia dan saya

assalammualaikum..

hari tu dekat facebook, en shahrul ada la post sesuatu

kita yg membaca ni nak marah pun, dah memg pakwe aku macam ni, jadi kita cool je la.

bila tiba harinya,kita wish la dia goodluck, dengn nada2 sarcasm.

tapi pakwe kita xfahaaam!!ke dia buat2 xfaham,haha

xpe,kita layankan jeeee

ok ni nadanya macam takut kita kecik hati ni

haha.

new life 2013

assalammualaikum,

WAAOW!its been a year since my last post.
seems like so many thing have changed in this blog
and so do i :)
so how are you doing my bloggers friend?
my life is great and better.
last two years i nonpublic my blog
i am too lazy to write but i do read others blog :)
silent reader to be specific.
and as twitter are too short for me to share my thought, i feel like writing again :)

well, this semester i have an english class
i like my English lecture and the class too.
the class was fun and relax.
watching her spoke english very well makes me eager too talk english well too.
but some how, my group in that class is not that fun,hehe
FYI, this semester, mostly my group mate assignmnt or laboratory are with a Chinese boy and a Malay boy.
and to be clear, the chinese boy is not lee ming hao like in diploma,haha.
at first, i was expected that the chinese boy is like lee, hihih, but, he is totally different.360 degree different but minus the intelligence,hehe, both of them are genius i guess.
what i like about this chinese, we ussualy speak english in texting or facebooking.
it improve my confident level and english too :)
and he didn't laugh if my grammar is wrong.
not like this one boy in my english group..
just like a typical malay who didn't like to see other people trying to be good.
it was in our discussion meeting in FACEBOOK, and we are doing english class project, so why not we communicate each other with english together in FACEBOOK and not face to face, therefore we can improve our english too without being shy looking each other face if we write wrong grammar.
unfortunately, when i write in english, this one boy said " kenapa xcakap melayu,dalam kelas kan ckp melayu" owh my god, i thought, students in the universities  do not have this minded anymore,but looks like there are people like that. but, the boy ask me an apologize for saying those thing, and i forgave him, but there is a quote i once read 'EASY TO FORGIVE BUT HARD TO FORGET' :)



p/s: FYI,this is not the funny and awkward story as i mention in the twitter,hehe, i tell you next time